MIA - Missing In Action

I cant possibly tell you where I've been in terms of all emotions and ideas for my Finding 50...but for the past week I've been MIA....justifying my resignation to drop the whole thing!!!!!

I felt it got too far away from the original idea; too hard, too small, too late, too unclear, too stressful, whilst not having too much fun or flow or ease - and yet I can see Grace all over it. Such is life on the edge, as one seeks to break the bounds of the box....that thing we call our comfort zone. Today's a new day for me and I'm EXCITED cause I just jolly well booked something!!!!!

My loudest messages to date have been Lori's one's of
"Lori is going" (see her blog)
"Gayel Please yourself"
"Gayel WHAT do YOU WANT" (Those who God wants with you She'll orchestrate)
"Gayel stop rescuing people"

My morning started beautifully with morning sunrise meditation and reading - a very pertinent section of Lynne Twists book re "Scarcity" and "Sufficiency" I got to practise recording these special parts of my morning as I intend to capture for my trip. My darling Patterson had bought me a Gorgeous new video camera that we can upload straight to youtube and we're trialing it.

For morning tea my hairdresser girlfriend Vicki came to visit me at our new place and just loved it. I kept saying...why would I leave this place its soooo magic. But - I know 'if' I go, it wouldn't be because I'm running away from a broken place, but that I take this energy and wealth with me. Before she came, my trip was an if, but from the great information she shared I again got to see and FEEL how it could work and be right for me. She knows Thailand and Asia like the back of her hand, and gave me lots of simple exciting tips and information.

After she left I called Lori with yet my latest idea, and even as we spoke Vicki was leaving a message of a brilliant airline deal, a round trip direct to Bangkok 13 April returning 4 May. I decided it was fine to let go of the 50 day thing as the airline deal was only for 21 days...and that was ok. Patterson is taking me somewhere for a week after my actual birthday, and we are heading to NY, CO and LA in June so this is all enough for now.

My focus will be a few days in Bangkok and then to head to Koh Chang for the absolute R&R&R&R&R originally perceived. This is a place where I can get daily massages, live on the beach and take in the local beachfront restaurants, off the beaten tourist traps.

My focus will be daily meditations, yoga, swimming, adventuring, eating and connecting with the locals, reading and recording special moments for my finding50 friends and followers. From there I can be flexible to move as I feel moved for the next steps. Soooo, in pleasing myself and just starting somewhere, this the next step achieved. A decision made, an openness and willingness to continue my joy-urney.

Big Hugs,
Gayel